When I start a creative project I tend to distance myself from the outside world. I go into mental seclusion. My friends wonder where I disappeared to. I have no clue what is going on outside my little box of a brain. This is fine for a while. In fact it helps the creative project incubate as life is breathed into it. But if I stay in this place too long I begin to notice adverse side-effects: ego flares, doubt, and fear. (Notice the last 2 are versions of “ego flares”) I tend to forget that I am actually part of a greater universe that is alive and evolving while I’m stuck inside my mental cave.
I would guess that the universe has been showering me with blessings but I’ve been too self absorbed to notice. Now that all my projects are underway in some form, it is time to get out of this me-centered space. Yesterday I did an exercise to help me do this. I put a piece of paper in my pocket and purposely LOOKED for amazing blessings to occur. I expected them to arrive. When they did I wrote them down. Needless to say, yesterday was amazing! I am so blessed and am quickly getting back to a place of gratitude. I tallied up 7 blessings during the day- things that just happened without any effort on my part. All 7 of them are significant. I am ready to interact with the outside world once again.
As a side note I have been dealing with a ton of fear lately, because I am giving my comfort zone a huge shove. I picked up the book “Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway”. So far I think it has some good ideas. I’m open to anything at this point. Cold Call Day is tomorrow and already I want to crawl back into my cave. But… I WON”T. I’ll pick up that phone and plow through it and hopefully get a few appointments.