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The Little Chapel that Could

Thursday, June 17th, 2010

I’m a big believer in the power of intention. Allow me to share this little story about the current music video I’m shooting. In my mind I saw shooting the band scenes in a Gothic-style church. There’s plenty of them around, so how hard could it be to get space at one, right? Well, the one thing that constantly eluded me was this location. My poor production manager and I tried several different places but to no avail. The locations were either way too expensive, had noise restrictions, or flat out ignored our request. So I changed gears and booked the shoot at a green screen studio. But that too fell through. Yet I still could not give up. I KNEW the band needed to be in a Gothic cathedral. So in a final act of desperation I stated out loud to “the powers that be”, “I need a Gothic cathedral and it must not have noise restrictions, and it must be affordable. Thank you!”

A few days later my PM and I went to check out yet another Gothic cathedral. It is in a cemetery so I was certain the noise would be an issue. So get this, the lady is showing us the facility and it’s totally adorable. When I ask about sound issues she says it’s not a problem. When she tells me the price to rent the place…it’s not a problem either. I tell her I want to book the shoot only a few days out. She says it’s not a problem, any time will be fine. Every concern I had about pulling off a successful shoot was addressed and surpassed my greatest hopes. Heck, we even get to use the church’s sound system to run our audio playback!

So, next Monday band and crew will be rockin’ it at this pretty darn cool-looking Gothic cathedral. (ok, it’s not really a cathedral…it’s a chapel, but still!) Call my story of intention weird woo-woo mumbo jumbo if you want. But I’m telling you it works!

The Final Location: found at last

The Final Location: found at last

Wrapping it up at the Hospital

Friday, June 11th, 2010

The music video crew had to go to the hospital yesterday (for some shooting…uh…video shooting that is). This location was a blast. It is a nursing school that is closed for the summer, so we got the whole wing of the building to ourselves. After racing down the halls in the wheelchairs we finally got down to work. (I’m kidding…sorta)

This was our last day with the actors. By now we were all comfortable working together and the atmosphere was very silly and laid back. It’s a good thing too because we were shooting the most dramatic parts of the video today. So it was nice to have some humor and fun behind the scenes. I loved working with real actors! Coming from the documentary world, I’m used to coaxing people who are scared of the camera. To have people that love the lens was a total treat.

Here’s a few shots.

Directing at the Hospital

Directing at the Hospital

reverse angle

reverse angle

Is she ok?

Is she ok?

No Failures, Only Blessings

Wednesday, June 9th, 2010
ACTION!

ACTION!

I’ve been quiet lately because I’ve been feeling sorry for myself. On Tuesday the biggest shoot of this music video fell through. Well, it didn’t “fall through” really. I bailed on it. The band, my crew and I were all set to shoot next week at an awesome green screen studio. My discomfort with shooting green screen was there all along, but I wasn’t listening to it. “It’ll be ok. I need to learn this shooting technique anyway, ” I kept telling myself. It wasn’t until I met with the studio people that I finally heard that little voice that had been telling me “don’t do it” all along. It was then that I learned I’d need to drop a lot more money to pull off a successful shoot. It was then I realized I was in over my head. I was mad at myself. I fell into the old thoughts of “I really should be farther along in my career” sob story. “I really should know how to shoot green screen and what’s wrong with me?!”

Thankfully, that was yesterday. I woke up today feeling done with the pity party. I am back in my power and in fact I am glad this shoot fell through. I know that there is another location out there that will be even better…we just haven’t found it yet. This is not a failure. It is a blessing. I am sleeping great now that we AREN”T shooting on green screen. Duh.  I am listening to the part of me that knows stuff. It is saying that things will work out if I stay patient. So today, it is back to the grind of scouting locations. My assistant is back on the phone calling places. Our past efforts have gone nowhere. And after several failed attempts to nail this location down, I am more determined that ever to find the perfect location.

In the meantime, here’s some shots from one of the shoots last week.

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Shooting at the wrought iron gate location

Shooting at the wrought iron gate location

Yin and Yang Soup

Saturday, April 17th, 2010

potofsoup1Have you ever had the experience of being caught up in a certain thought pattern or a certain mood that seemed so real? So permanent? Then maybe you go off and watch a movie. Then you come back to whatever it was and you feel totally different about it? Like your perspective has totally shifted? This experience has always fascinated and haunted me. I often wonder do other people do this? Do I have a personality disorder?

The last month has been incredible. I was full of confidence, universal love, and was stepping into my power. Then this week happened. A big ol’ freight train forged right through all that and delivered me a big pile of doubt, anger, and self pity. Boy, I didn’t see that coming. Then I felt really mad at myself for slipping back into old thought patterns, rehashing junk I’ve already worked through, and feeling as though I am back at square one and all my progress was for naught. Then…

For some reason I was blessed with a moment of clarity. I realized that a personality is like a big pot of soup. The ingredients are Yin and Yang. Sometimes I dominate in Yang. Other times I wallow in Yin. Both are aspects of the same personality. I realized I wasn’t “regressing” at all, but rather experiencing a different mixture of these energies, a different aspect of myself. Pretty cool. Then I imagined myself taking a giant spoon and giving that big pot a big stir, mixing up the two balancing forces of never-ending possibility once again.

Pipeline Addition

Thursday, April 8th, 2010

It is with great pleasure to announce an official new addition to the pipeline. We are now in development for another music video! This one will be our largest production yet. Details to follow.

In The Pipeline

Friday, March 26th, 2010

Book Trailer “The Ultimate Story (of a rock star)“;  Pre-Production
Music Video – Bodragaz Beautiful; Pre-Production (casting)
Educational DVD- Attachment Issues for Adoptive Families; Post Production
Live Concert DVD- Wild Angelz Album release party; Shooting
Music Video – John Common In My Neighborhood;  Post Production
Promo Video – Journey to Me;  Shooting

Change and the Life-Changers

Thursday, March 25th, 2010

Well, the new look for the blog continues to be delayed by real life. Sigh… will have to continue with the half-new version for now because I have so much to say I’m about to burst.

Spring is near and it is a time for renewal. I don’t think I have ever felt this renewed…EVER. I’ve been going through a “rebirthing” process. Change is happening so quickly that sometimes I hardly recognize myself. I occasionally have to talk myself down from a place of fear because change is happening so quickly. When I think of where I was two years ago I cannot believe how the winds have changed.

The biggest thing is I am gaining a new confidence in areas that were previously filled with hesitancy. I am finally OVER hiding myself behind a rock in fear of offending someone, or getting a crusty look from someone who thinks, “Man, that chick is weird.” I simply don’t care anymore. I am ME and I am letting myself SHINE brightly! I no longer choke when saying “I am an artist.” I no longer worry about not becoming a millionaire, and I don’t ever listen to the doom and gloom in the media or anyone else who spouts off that junk. Life is meant to be LIVED with each breath. Every circumstance in front of me, every person in my life deserves unconditional love. I am finally in a place to offer that.

This didn’t happen over night. I am a merciless seeker of knowledge and experiences. I tried many things that didn’t fit me. Those things got quickly stripped off and I’d move on to the next one. Every so often I stumbled upon a true life-changer, a real keeper. The biggest ones being:

1. Taoism- through this philosophy I finally found something that agrees with me.
2. “Loving What Is” by Byron Katie. The last “self help” book I will ever need because guess what… we already are perfect. The other self help guru’s will freak if the contents of this book ever get out.
3. VISION Seminars by Carol Reynolds. Can’t even start to explain what goes on at these events, but if you get a chance to attend one, please do. You will never regret it.

Never stop searching for what fits YOU. It is different for everyone. But whatever you need to do, learn to live your life OUT LOUD!!! I am here to support you because I love you!

New Design in the Works

Thursday, March 11th, 2010

As you can see, I’m in the process of doing a redesign on this blog. Once it’s done it will be much more ME. Please bear with it as it’s a bit funky in that in-between stage right now.

Living in the Face of Danger

Tuesday, February 23rd, 2010

“Believe me, the secret for harvesting from existence the greatest fruitfulness and greatest enjoyment is – to live dangerously.” – Nietzsche

I found this quote the other day and loved it. I wanted to post it on my FaceBook. But I suddenly realized, “Why would I do that? I’m not living dangerously!” PLEASE! I’m a stay-at-home mom in the heart of a small city. I wrangle my kids schedules and try to squeeze in a bit of creativity between obligations. There is nothing dangerous about my life. I’m not living in a war zone. I’m not wondering where my next meal is coming from. I’m not shooting documentaries in the African rainforest (yet). Where’s the danger? Then I felt just dumb…and boring.

Then I relaxed into that a bit and started to think about it more. Well, I did just sent my novel to two people to get their feedback. That is dangerous, right? I’ve been a closet writer my whole life, but this is really the first time I’ve put my stuff “out there” for others to see. It is scary. Even telling people about it makes me nervous, yet I am starting to tell people about it. My ego is in danger of being harmed but I proceed anyhow.

I’ve been working on this idea for a new music video (the overly ambitious one). I met with a set-designer last week and got some great (and cheap) ideas of how I can pull it off. Oh, I decided to not contact Mr. Leto. Why? Because I found a song I like ever better for this concept! I emailed that band last night and now wait to hear back. Danger? You bet! Again my creative heart is on the line and …. what if they say YES? This rather well-known band from Europe saying yes, would mean I actually have to follow through and make this film. Now that seems very dangerous because the prospect frightens me… big time.

So I’m not climbing Mt. Everest solo without supplemental oxygen. But maybe I am being just a tiny bit dangerous in my own way. How about you? What dangers are you facing? What envelops are you pushing?

Thoughts on the False Notion of Linear Time

Tuesday, February 16th, 2010

persistenceofmemory2Time is a strange concept. I love thinking about time because it takes my relentless mind on some rather crazy journeys. I get to the point where I can no longer fathom time as a concept and all its relative weirdness. I’ve had the theory for several years now that time is best represented by a 3-dimensional sphere. Our minds merely perceive time as passing linearly. Imagine your time on this earth as a big ball. Inside is every experience, thought, and memory you will ever have. The mind then spends its time (ironic?) sorting it out and trying to put it into logical order because…let’s face it, that’s just what minds do!

There are moments when we touch the non-linear fragments of time, but our logical mind cannot understand it. For example, I am convinced that ideas are absolutely non-linear. You may touch on an idea and decades later it comes back as if it were hovering in the back of your brain all this time. My current novel is very much this way. Most of the characters were conceived over 20 years ago. And I mean every vivid detail of them was alive way back then. But for some weird reason they resurfaced now in the form of a book. Strange.

Have you ever had the experience of loosing touch with a friend only to have her reappear in your life years later? But what is amazing about this experience is the moment you are in the company of your old friend you feel as if no time has passed at all. You pick up right where you left off with that person. On one hand it is a very bizarre phenomenon, but on the other totally natural.

We also have the experience of “deja vu”; meeting someone new who seems familiar, or being in a place you’re sure you’ve been before…but haven’t. Perhaps you are merely remembering something that hasn’t happened yet. Maybe in your spherical time ball you caught sight of an experience, but then your mind quickly filed it under “put this one at a future date”.

I mention this here because I think it’s fascinating and it’s been happening a lot to me lately. Old ideas resurfacing, past people popping back into my life, and meeting new people and experiences that I just know have some sort of significance, I just don’t know what yet. Yet time just keeps marching on like a merciless soldier, heading toward some linear end point. Very strange.

*Yep. These are the things my mind thinks about when winter starts getting too long. In case you were wondering.